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A Confession, Apology and Update.

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A Confession:

“Therefore, prepare your minds for action, be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given to you when Jesus Christ is revealed.”

1 Peter 1:13

Self-control. This is my greatest struggle. I think that the underlying cause of all sin is selfishness. We sin because we put our own desires first; we fail to control ourselves. I am lazy, thus the name of this blog, and I struggle with motivating myself to do the things I know I should be doing. And I feel bad, guilty, ashamed but I fail to truly grasp the importance and implications of my actions (or lack of action). The verse I quoted above is really only useful if taken in context. It begins, “Therefore.” My first youth pastor always said, “If you see a ‘therefore’ in the Bible, you should ask, ‘What’s it there for?'” In this case it is there to connect the directions and guidance for living with the reason for those directions. Why do we need to be self-controlled? 1 Peter chapter one begins with Peter addressing the persecuted church scattered throughout the nations. He is talking to believers and he starts by reminding them of the hope they have in God. He reminds them of their salvation and then tells them, “Therefore, prepare your minds for action..”  The passage continues and he says in verse 17:

“Since you call on a Father who judges each man’s work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear. For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.”

1 Peter 1:17-18

My life, your life if you are a believer, has been bought, redeemed, saved. We were not purchased with money, silver or gold or any other perishable thing of this world, but with the perfect, priceless, blood of Christ. What more motivation could I possibly need to do anything?! And yet, I struggle…

I struggle with getting out of bed first in the morning when I would much rather snuggle with my handsome hubby and get a few more minutes of sleep.

I struggle with staying active and caring for my body in a way that glorifies God.

I struggle with self-control in the area of reading. I have always been a bookworm, and reading can be a great thing, but for me it is also a temptation, a way to escape into fantasy worlds and avoid dealing with the chores and day-to-day monotony of my life, a life that Christ died to give me, but I dare call boring.

I tell my husband that I would, “go anywhere for a year,” meaning a foreign mission field or California, where ever. I have always dreamed of living in a third world country and I would go in a heartbeat given the opportunity, but I can’t manage to keep up with the laundry or minister to the people in my community here. I once heard a sermon where the pastor compared our service to God to different denominations of money. He talked about giving our “quarters” and not just our “thousands.” I would give my thousands in the form of moving, leaving home and family and everything familiar, but I fail to give my quarters, the small, daily sacrifices that life is composed of.

I think the only real cure for this is a better understanding of the sacrifice made for me, for all of us. The convicting work of the Holy Spirit working in my life so that I can fully understand the importance of my actions.

I seek to serve God, please my husband and care for my family, in that order and I ask your prayers for me as I daily struggle to control my sinful self and to “live as a stranger in reverent fear.”

An Apology:

I lied to you. My last post indicated all of these great topics that I was going to write about and how I would blog once a week and it was going to be great. Well, if you read my confession above then you know that blogging is not the only thing I have not been doing that I should be. I love having this blog and the opportunity to share with the world and I hope that ya’ll benefit from my writing. I hope to write for you move often in the future, but in the meantime I hope you will forgive me for misleading you.

An Update:

Oh how time does fly. I read a quote a friend posted on Facebook the other day that said: “the days are long but the years are short.” That is exactly how I feel. Micah is incredible. He keeps me busy and I am often tired and suffer from cabin fever so that my days feel long but I can’t believe his birthday is just over a month away. No way has he been here a year already! Yet, in someways it seems like he has always been here; it’s hard to picture our family without him. Just this week he learned to clap, so that is his new favorite thing and he grins every time  waiting for me to say,”Yay!” He is super active, crawling and pulling up on everything. He has learned that he can lean against the back of our couch and then stand without holding on to anything so he can play with his toys. He is really close to walking but hasn’t yet gotten brave enough to stand on his own. I’m excited to see him grow and learn new things but I’m in no hurry for him to grow up or become any more mobile than he already is. He is so cute. I need to take some pictures and share on here. But, for now I am going to go get him; I can hear him waking up from his nap.

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An overdue update

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I haven’t posted in quite a while, so here we go!

Micah is almost 5 months old…crazy! He had a doctor’s apt. this week to get a couple of vaccines (remind me to post about vaccines, what we’re doing and why). While there, the nurse weighed him. He weighs 14.7 lbs. My little man is growing up fast! He rolls over in both directions, plays with his feet and is REALLY close to sitting up by himself.

This past Sunday I discovered kinda by accident just how close he is to sitting up on his own. We got to church late for Sunday School and I needed to nurse Micah, so I fed him then stayed with him in the nursery playing with the other babies until it was time for the service. After he had eaten, I sat on the floor with him on the floor in front of me. I was holding onto his hips so that he had to support and balance his upper body. And he just sat there, sitting up straight and not wobbling around at all. So, I let go, and he just kept sitting there! I had no idea he could do that! He sat for almost a minute unsupported before falling over. I was completely amazed. So, he can sit up for brief periods and is getting better everyday.

Christian is going to Wisconsin on a business trip this week. It will be the longest we have been apart since getting married and the first time we have been apart at all since Micah was born. I’m sure it will be hard, but he is also really excited about the trip. Then, as soon as he gets back, he will begin teaching a math class at our local community college. Also, I am going to be caring for a little boy whom I will refer to as “A,” beginning Friday. He is 6 weeks younger than Micah, so I’m sure I will be VERY busy. So, this week coming up is going to be a lot of firsts and some big changes, but I’m excited to see how God is working in our lives and we are very grateful for the new opportunities He has blessed us with!

On another note, I am venturing into the world of cloth diaper sewing, and so far I have had a lot of fun, but I’m still not sure how well my creations are going to work. I’ll keep you posted!

Two months and counting…

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Micah was two months old yesterday. He is so big now, it is hard to believe that he ever fit inside me. I know everyone says “they grow up too fast” or “my, how the time flies,” but it really seems like a lot more than two months has passed since he was born, not because the days drag by, but because it seems like he has always been a part of our family. Christian and I were talking about this the other day. He said that he feels like the family dynamic didn’t really change that much, though of course it has, but he fit so seamlessly into our lives it is hard to point to a single moment when things really changed.

I am completely healed from the C-section and have recently started exercising again on a regular basis. I am starting slow and aiming for at least 30 mins of cardio every other day, in the form of running or riding my bike. On the other days I do yoga, go for a walk and/or do strength exercises like crunches, push-ups, etc. I am curently about 12lbs heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight and 20-25lbs heavier than my “ideal” weight. Having never been overweight before, I feel surprisingly energetic and spry. I guess I just assumed that if I was 20 lbs overweight I would feel really yucky, but I have always had a pretty healthy self-image and I still feel good about myself. So, I’m not stressing over trying to lose weight, I just want to be healthy.

As for Micah, he is doing great. At his last Dr. appointment, he weighed 10lbs even and was 23 inches long. That puts him in the 35th percentile for height and the 20th for weight. I find that rather amusing since Christian was in the 90th percentile for height and the 75th for weight. But both my dad and my father-in-law are a little shorter than average, so perhaps Micah will take after his grandfathers instead of his father. I don’t care either way as long as he is healthy, which he is. 🙂

The night before last (Tuesday night) Micah slept from 10pm-4:30am, the longest he has slept at one stretch. He is a good sleeper (at night anyways) and normally goes to bed somewhere between 9 and 10. He wakes up to eat every 3 or 4 hrs but always goes right back to sleep, so it really isn’t bad and I get plenty of rest since I have the luxery of sleeping in with him until 8 or 9 most mornings. But, when he slept 6 hours straight I got all excited thinking that maybe he was going to start weaning himself off of some of his nighttime feedings. I was quickly disabused of this notion last night when he woke up at 1:30am, 3am, 4:30, 6 and 7. Clearly, he doesn’t really NEED to eat that often but I nursed him each time because I knew that he would go right back to sleep if I did. However, I can see this leading to some bad habits developing if he wakes up to nurse for comfort and not because he is hungry. I am going to wait until he is three months old, and if he hasn’t begun to wean himself from his nighttime feedings, I probably will make some effort to do so. At least to space them out more. If he can sleep from 10-4 one night, there is no reason he can’t do it every night.

Other exciting things happening in our lives: we sold Christian’s car two weeks ago with the intention of purchasing something bigger, automatic, with decent gas mileage. He had a 2003 Ford Focus ZX3 (2 door, hatchback) which was manual. I am capable of driving a manual if I have to, but I don’t have much experience or confidence and would rather not if I can avoid it. My car is old and very beat up (not my fault!), though reliable so we wanted something a little newer that is big enough for a car sear or two that I can drive and Christian can drive my poor old car to work. We sold his car within 12 hrs of posting it on Craigslist, but two weeks later we have yet to purchase anything else. Which means that either a) Christian rides his bike to work so that I can use the car or b) Christian drives to work and I am stuck at the house all day. This really hasn’t been too bad because Christian can ride his bike, but if he closes, then he doesn’t get home until 9 or later and I don’t want him driving up and down Capitol on his bike in the dark. So, he takes the car on days when he has to close and I stay at home with Micah, but this means that I can’t go look at any othe cars, which is the main reason we haven’t purchased anything. So, to summarize: we need to buy a car so that I have something to drive while Christian is at work, but I can’t go buy a car becuase I don’t have anything to drive while Christian is at work. 🙂

On Monday we had a Five Generation photo shoot, below are some of the pictures from that, courtesy of Bekah Morton.

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The best of intentions

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 From May 6, 2012:

Micah, in his swing, six weeks old.

Micah is now seven weeks old. I told myself that I was going to blog more regularly to help keep our extended family updated on our daily happenings, but you know how that goes. He is a great sleeper (normally). My biggest challenge right now is getting him to nap in his crib. He loves his swing, but I don’t want him to be in the habit of sleeping in it (too late!). Everytime I put him in it, he falls asleep so yesterday I didn’t use it…and he didn’t nap. 😦 From 12:30pm to 12am he only slept about an hour total. Needless to say we were both very tired and running short on patience. Once he finally went to bed for the night, he was fine. I half anticipated him sleeping for a longer than ususual length of time before waking to eat, but no. He is going through his week six growth spurt (not nearly as dramatic as the week two growth spurt) and so he woke up more than usual last night to eat…but he always goes right back to sleep, so no harm done. We got up at 8am and he has yet to really nap today, again, maybe an hour total all day. Eventually he will get so tired that he will have to sleep, swing or no swing, but I don’t feel like I have really accomplished much around the house yesterday or today because I count on his naps for me to have the time for things like hanging out laundry and showering, etc. A lot of other things I can do with him in the Moby, but again, I don’t want him to get used to sleeping with me holding him and he normally falls asleep in the Moby, so I have been avoiding that also. Things like washing dishes is always dificult in the Moby, mainly because I am so short that he ends up bumping against the edge of the counter which is uncomfortable for him. My arms are also short enough that it can be dificult for me to reach the faucet when I have to account for the extra space he creates between me and the sink ( I also had this problem while pregnant with him, go figure.).

So, as I said, yesterday was fairly unproductive. I did wash and hang out a load of diapers (non-negotiable, the diapers MUST be washed!). Instead, while listening to him fuss for three hours straight (no exageration), I discovered some great blogs and spent way more time than I should have reading post after post. Here are a couple of my favorites:

www.raisingarrow.net

www.inashoe.com  this is my personal favorite, because she adds a lot of humor to her writing

www.raisingolives.com

All of these are written by Christian ladies who are wives and moms who homeschool. They have lots of great tips on large family living, homeschooling, cooking, organizing, parenting, etc. I would love for my blog to be half as cool as any one of these! I have found a lot of great motivational and encouraging info. KimC, mother of 10 and author of In a Shoe, has some great posts about procrastination that I really liked. I find it encouraging to know that a mom of such a large family struggles with some of the same things that I do and still makes it work…maybe there is hope for me yet! 🙂